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23 August 2006 @ 03:29 pm
So I guess some things have changed since the last time I wrote anything in here. I've graduated from high school, gone to New York City, and built and demolished the set of an opera. I have a girlfriend, and quite an awesome one, albeit one who happens to live several hundred miles away. I've tried to grow a goatee. I have three pieces of titanium inserted into my gums in various locations. I've found out where I'll be living for the next year, and I'm resigned to it.

I leave for Chicago on September 14th. I'm not really doing much from now until then. Some of my friends have left now, some haven't. I need to try and see whoever I can before they leave and I realize that they're gone. Whatever, maybe I'll just hang out at BB&N until I fly out since I'll have nothing better to do. I'm excited to get to school and stuff. Mad O-Week parties and the like. I may have a triple that's a mile from campus, but it shall be an *empty* triple a mile from campus for a week or so. So yeah.

I saw Lindsey last night for the first time in a while, and I'm glad that things are cool between us again now. Not that they weren't, exactly, but something just feels better now that had been missing for a while. We went bowling, which is still something I suck at. But fuck coordination.

So, let's see... Civ 4 rocks my world; New York rocks my world; Chicago will rock my world; and Katy Cristina McNeil rocks my world most of all.
22 April 2006 @ 09:24 pm
fuck all the indecision.
10 April 2006 @ 01:11 am
Things I need to do:

Buy new music
Figure out what I'm doing this summer
Figure out where I'm going to school
Find a prom date

01 April 2006 @ 12:36 am
*suspicious grin*

What? Oh, nothing.
27 March 2006 @ 10:50 pm
I'm on a jury. What the fuck?
25 February 2006 @ 12:29 am
Illusions are gone. But I'm afraid of what's underneath, because there is frighteningly little. Midnight revelations tell me what they always have. I'd almost forgotten what it felt like to be this alone, to know that nothing I do is really worthwhile anymore. I wanted so badly to be able to focus my unfulfilled desires somewhere, but after everything is said and done I realize that they had little to do with reality. There isn't very much that matters to me now, and when I try to fill the empty spaces I am only deluding myself. I've said before that something needs to change, and it is truer than ever. I can't go on anymore without anything to distract me from my own boredom.

It's late and I'm prone to melodrama. I guess this is the wrong time to try to be objective. I'll feel better in the morning. All of this is kind of ridiculous, really. Just a plea for sympathy or attention. I think I need people more than I let on.
10 February 2006 @ 09:39 pm
Maybe I should have gone to the semi. I don't really think it's the kind of thing I would have enjoyed - it's not like I can dance or anything - but it's nature to regret it nonetheless. Sometimes I wonder if I've really progressed much in the last four years.
07 February 2006 @ 07:23 pm
It's probably a good thing when circumstances force me to confront things that I would otherwise avoid indefinitely.
06 February 2006 @ 12:36 am
starvingeyes87: i think i am on the lamest and most anticlimactic downward spiral evar
05 February 2006 @ 01:08 pm
I need a catalyst.